Mind of A Wanderer

Here I am again, lost in the void of my own mind. This time it's different. I actually enjoy this place. My surroundings are so relaxing, like that scenic painting I saw that day at the museum. I never thought a place like this could exist. Well it doesn't exist except only in my mind. The sky is a red like I have never seen before. The clouds are floating past the sun, and the temperature, oh how it is perfect. I have never felt so warm. It's like the nature that I see has consumed my soul. What's this? The sounds have began to set upon my ears. So soothing they are. I don't understand it, is this what it feels like when one's soul is at perfect harmony? I have never felt such serenity. I would say all this is perfect but alas it is not. Can it be that I am the see such beauty with no one to share it with? This can't be. Well as of now I will continue to explore the inner depths of my mentality to seek what it is I am searching for. I know this cannot be complete. Where is the one to share this with me? No family, nor friends. No spouse, or offspring? This is just insane. Now it seems that y worried thoughts have corrupted this void in which I currently inhabit. The once green leaves have lost their colour. The sky has been darkened by the clouds I once believed were my friends. The redness of the sky has become black as the eye of a being with no soul. Are my thoughts of the future the pain that clouds my mind. I really don't understand how the search for completion could be my downfall. Do I search tho hard? Do I want to much? I never thought that something so pure would destroy me. Eh, here it is, my trip back to reality. I never seem to draw an answer from these mind trips, only insight. Well all I know is, it won't be long before I return to my void...