Mind of a Wanderer Pt.3

Here I am again. What is this now. Surrounded  by red, white and pink. Hearts everywhere, boxes of chocolates, teddy bears, and roses. And yet again no one in sight. This is really pissing me off. What is this some sort of sick joke? Is my mind laughing in my face. So friggin' what! So what if I am alone. So what if I'm on the outside looking in. I told myself that I don't care but I can't even believe these lies I am selling. I am just so tired of these tears. Men aren't supposed to cry for gods-sake. I can't help it if I cry. I hold back my feelings for no one. I won't go down like this though. Even if I spend this day alone I will show my love for someone. I will... what... slipping back to reality already... This... sucks...

What I Look For In A Woman

One day I hope to get married, and the type of person that I am I will not just settle for my happiness. If there is a woman that I plan on spending my whole life with she must have certain qualities if I plan to devote my life to her.

1. Love- She must have love in her life. She must love me just as I love her. She must also have love for the world as I do.
2. Responsibility- The lady in my life must be responsible. I can't be her husband and caretaker at the same time. I need someone who doesn't need me but wants me.
3. Maternal Instinct- Nowadays not all women have maternal instinct, and if they do I cannot see it. I need a woman who will raise our children with TLC. I don't want my kids to fall down in their path in life. The right way is paved by good parenting.
4. Sense of Humor- My whole life I've been something of a jokester, and I don't plan on changing. If there will be someone that I will spend my life with, she must be able to laugh. Life is not always serious, so you have to be able to sit back and laugh when the situation calls for it.
5. Belief in God- I believe a strong relationship is built on the foundation of God. So in order for us to maintain our relationship we will need the guidance of god.
6. The Ability to be Trusted- I need someone that I can trust. I am a bit paranoid about life and if I cant trust someone the I can't be around them so the ability to be trusted is a strong part in a relationship.
7. Open- I need someone who can be open with me in all aspects. I need someone who can come to me when there is something wrong. My shoulder is meant for my spouse to lean on it and I would expect them to use it.
   
8. Compromise- My spouse must be able to compromise with me as well as I would compromise with her. As long as the situation that needs to be compromised does not go outside of the agreement we made when we say I do.

These are a few qualities I look for in a woman. I listed these down because they are the main ones. The other ones are negotiable, so they need not be listed because the can be worked out.

Mind of a Wanderer Pt.2

Ha, here I am again. That didn't take long. What is this? This is a first. I am standing here in the dark, yet I see everything the lies ahead. This is something I have never seen before. Music has started to play and each and every wall I am surrounded by has began to show color. It's like I am trapped in a visualization. I mean, yeah, the colors are a beautiful sight to behold, but what does it all mean. Wait is that...? I know this song. This is moments in love by Art of Noise. This is a song right here. Ever since I was young this song has captivated my soul. It taught me how to go with the flow. Now that I think about it, the music we listen to when we are young has an impact on our future. Throughout all the lyrics I heard the most inspiring song had none. Pure beauty. This is a place where I can spend the rest of my life. There is power in music I say. Aww the song is over? Well nothing lasts forever, or so they say. One day I will prove that statement wrong. Huh? Moments in love again? I was expecting something different but okay. I wonder if I can find a playlist around here or something. Ah ha. Wait what? It's the same song over and over. I mean I love this song but I can't do this constantly. I guess I need to find something more than what I think is perfection. Maybe it's not all in one thing, but a variety.  But what else can i learn from this? Am I destined to miss out on something better because I refuse to let go of what I love? Ah, again I am slipping back to reality. I never seem to come to a conclusion with these episodes.... 

Mind of A Wanderer

Here I am again, lost in the void of my own mind. This time it's different. I actually enjoy this place. My surroundings are so relaxing, like that scenic painting I saw that day at the museum. I never thought a place like this could exist. Well it doesn't exist except only in my mind. The sky is a red like I have never seen before. The clouds are floating past the sun, and the temperature, oh how it is perfect. I have never felt so warm. It's like the nature that I see has consumed my soul. What's this? The sounds have began to set upon my ears. So soothing they are. I don't understand it, is this what it feels like when one's soul is at perfect harmony? I have never felt such serenity. I would say all this is perfect but alas it is not. Can it be that I am the see such beauty with no one to share it with? This can't be. Well as of now I will continue to explore the inner depths of my mentality to seek what it is I am searching for. I know this cannot be complete. Where is the one to share this with me? No family, nor friends. No spouse, or offspring? This is just insane. Now it seems that y worried thoughts have corrupted this void in which I currently inhabit. The once green leaves have lost their colour. The sky has been darkened by the clouds I once believed were my friends. The redness of the sky has become black as the eye of a being with no soul. Are my thoughts of the future the pain that clouds my mind. I really don't understand how the search for completion could be my downfall. Do I search tho hard? Do I want to much? I never thought that something so pure would destroy me. Eh, here it is, my trip back to reality. I never seem to draw an answer from these mind trips, only insight. Well all I know is, it won't be long before I return to my void...