Deja Vu

What ever happened to you and me,

Are you blind its not hard to see.

That you and I are now lost,

To be your friend I payed the cost,

Of my heart my soul and mind,

Although my feelings were close behind.

I felt the same way I did back then,

When I was more than just your friend.

Or at least thats what I thought,

Were your words lies that I bought.

I remember the day you said your were falling,

Not to long after you stop calling.

You filled my life with pain,

Still I don't know who's the one to blame. 

What is now has come to an end,

I don't thin I can even call you friend.

If I did I would be lying to myself or so I think,

Can you prove me wrong and bring back the link.

The tie that bonded us together,

The shelter against harsh weather.

Do you want to remain in my life,

Or leave me here with this pain and this strife.

For now it's over but you are forgiven,

I won't let the thought of you keep me from livin'.

The hope for a future is all up to you,

Because I refuse to let this become another deja vu.

Bring Me To Life

Working day to day is nothing but the same,

My body has become numb to the obvious pain.

Am I living amongst the dead or am I dying in the face of the living,

It try so hard to put it forth but my efforts show there is nothing that I'm giving.

Each day I have to watch a grown man cry,

Many times I face myself through the reflection in my eye.

I wish I didn't love but I can never feel hate,

I loathe that I love but I cannot compensate.

Bleeding on the inside while destroying what is out,

Every time that it crosses my mind I want to scream and I want to shout.

Waiting on the day that I find my way through the strife,

I can only dream of the day you bring me to life.

Written Suicide

Tear-stained pillow,

Blood-drenched hands.

Lost in at the edge of my mind,

Left lifeless from successful plans.

Pills scattered along the floor,

A blade in my grasp.

A rope against my neck,

Words on my tongue from stories of my past.

Tears from my family,

Screams of pain from my friends.

A smile on my face,

Knowing that my pain has come to an end...