Inspiration(Song)

Sometimes, I know life gets hard, You fall to your knees and your gonna get scarred.
As long as you bleed you know you feel, As they say in time all wounds will heal.
I'm so tired of being in this slump, Living my life feeling down in the dumps.
Right now we need a new sensation, So I'ma keep on moving til I find the inspiration.

Pushed to the ground kicked til I scream, I wanted to believe this all was a dream.
But nothing in life is ever what it seems, The whole world walks around with no self-esteem.
But who am I to go against the scheme, I'ma live my life until I reign supreme.
Until I raise my wings until I make you sing, Until you repeat every lyric that I bring.
Lately I've been wanting something new, Something seen by many but held by a few.
If I keep searching I know I'll make it through, The world may seem dark until you turn up the hue.
Some say it's a lie but I'm sure that it's true, Could it all be base on the individual point of view.
I don't know because I could be wrong, I found my inspiration in the words of this song.

Sometimes, I know life gets hard, You fall to your knees and your gonna get scarred.
As long as you bleed you know you feel, As they say in time all wounds will heal.
I'm so tired of being in this slump, Living my life feeling down in the dumps.
Right now we need a new sensation, So I'ma keep on moving til I find the inspiration.

Your looking for a change that's to hard to find, Let me feel your spirit let me read your mind.
You don't need a clock just to cease the time, You don't need a gun to save mankind.
Lost the will to speak let me be your rhyme, Closing your eyes will make you blind
Open your soul don't be confined, If your heart is in a knot let me unwind.
I felt before what you say you feel, Sometimes you think that life's' not real.
When things get hot it's like your minds on grill, Put you worries in the fridge and set on chill.
There are lessons in life let time reveal, The passion you posses is so surreal.
But your mad at the world take your sights off kill, Let me be your muse so you can heal.

Sometimes, I know life gets hard, You fall to your knees and your gonna get scarred.
As long as you bleed you know you feel, As they say in time all wounds will heal.
I'm so tired of being in this slump, Living my life feeling down in the dumps.
Right now we need a new sensation, So I'ma keep on moving til I find the inspiration.

I found my inspiration somewhere along the lines, I had to keep searchin for what is hard to find.
But I kno this in the back of my mind, When I reach my goal all will be fine.
All will be sweet all will be good, The world will play its story jus like it should.
Step off your porch and explore past your hood, Cuz i seen all the things i knew i could.
When I took my steps where I had to go, I had to address the world just to let them kno.
Stop holding back and let you feelings flow, Step from behind them curtains and start your show.
Now you see how I left my slump, Escaped living life while down in the dump.
Right now I posses my new sensation, Cuz i kept movin til I found my inspiration.

Deja Vu

What ever happened to you and me,

Are you blind its not hard to see.

That you and I are now lost,

To be your friend I payed the cost,

Of my heart my soul and mind,

Although my feelings were close behind.

I felt the same way I did back then,

When I was more than just your friend.

Or at least thats what I thought,

Were your words lies that I bought.

I remember the day you said your were falling,

Not to long after you stop calling.

You filled my life with pain,

Still I don't know who's the one to blame. 

What is now has come to an end,

I don't thin I can even call you friend.

If I did I would be lying to myself or so I think,

Can you prove me wrong and bring back the link.

The tie that bonded us together,

The shelter against harsh weather.

Do you want to remain in my life,

Or leave me here with this pain and this strife.

For now it's over but you are forgiven,

I won't let the thought of you keep me from livin'.

The hope for a future is all up to you,

Because I refuse to let this become another deja vu.

Bring Me To Life

Working day to day is nothing but the same,

My body has become numb to the obvious pain.

Am I living amongst the dead or am I dying in the face of the living,

It try so hard to put it forth but my efforts show there is nothing that I'm giving.

Each day I have to watch a grown man cry,

Many times I face myself through the reflection in my eye.

I wish I didn't love but I can never feel hate,

I loathe that I love but I cannot compensate.

Bleeding on the inside while destroying what is out,

Every time that it crosses my mind I want to scream and I want to shout.

Waiting on the day that I find my way through the strife,

I can only dream of the day you bring me to life.

Written Suicide

Tear-stained pillow,

Blood-drenched hands.

Lost in at the edge of my mind,

Left lifeless from successful plans.

Pills scattered along the floor,

A blade in my grasp.

A rope against my neck,

Words on my tongue from stories of my past.

Tears from my family,

Screams of pain from my friends.

A smile on my face,

Knowing that my pain has come to an end...

Mind of a Wanderer Pt.3

Here I am again. What is this now. Surrounded  by red, white and pink. Hearts everywhere, boxes of chocolates, teddy bears, and roses. And yet again no one in sight. This is really pissing me off. What is this some sort of sick joke? Is my mind laughing in my face. So friggin' what! So what if I am alone. So what if I'm on the outside looking in. I told myself that I don't care but I can't even believe these lies I am selling. I am just so tired of these tears. Men aren't supposed to cry for gods-sake. I can't help it if I cry. I hold back my feelings for no one. I won't go down like this though. Even if I spend this day alone I will show my love for someone. I will... what... slipping back to reality already... This... sucks...

What I Look For In A Woman

One day I hope to get married, and the type of person that I am I will not just settle for my happiness. If there is a woman that I plan on spending my whole life with she must have certain qualities if I plan to devote my life to her.

1. Love- She must have love in her life. She must love me just as I love her. She must also have love for the world as I do.
2. Responsibility- The lady in my life must be responsible. I can't be her husband and caretaker at the same time. I need someone who doesn't need me but wants me.
3. Maternal Instinct- Nowadays not all women have maternal instinct, and if they do I cannot see it. I need a woman who will raise our children with TLC. I don't want my kids to fall down in their path in life. The right way is paved by good parenting.
4. Sense of Humor- My whole life I've been something of a jokester, and I don't plan on changing. If there will be someone that I will spend my life with, she must be able to laugh. Life is not always serious, so you have to be able to sit back and laugh when the situation calls for it.
5. Belief in God- I believe a strong relationship is built on the foundation of God. So in order for us to maintain our relationship we will need the guidance of god.
6. The Ability to be Trusted- I need someone that I can trust. I am a bit paranoid about life and if I cant trust someone the I can't be around them so the ability to be trusted is a strong part in a relationship.
7. Open- I need someone who can be open with me in all aspects. I need someone who can come to me when there is something wrong. My shoulder is meant for my spouse to lean on it and I would expect them to use it.
   
8. Compromise- My spouse must be able to compromise with me as well as I would compromise with her. As long as the situation that needs to be compromised does not go outside of the agreement we made when we say I do.

These are a few qualities I look for in a woman. I listed these down because they are the main ones. The other ones are negotiable, so they need not be listed because the can be worked out.

Mind of a Wanderer Pt.2

Ha, here I am again. That didn't take long. What is this? This is a first. I am standing here in the dark, yet I see everything the lies ahead. This is something I have never seen before. Music has started to play and each and every wall I am surrounded by has began to show color. It's like I am trapped in a visualization. I mean, yeah, the colors are a beautiful sight to behold, but what does it all mean. Wait is that...? I know this song. This is moments in love by Art of Noise. This is a song right here. Ever since I was young this song has captivated my soul. It taught me how to go with the flow. Now that I think about it, the music we listen to when we are young has an impact on our future. Throughout all the lyrics I heard the most inspiring song had none. Pure beauty. This is a place where I can spend the rest of my life. There is power in music I say. Aww the song is over? Well nothing lasts forever, or so they say. One day I will prove that statement wrong. Huh? Moments in love again? I was expecting something different but okay. I wonder if I can find a playlist around here or something. Ah ha. Wait what? It's the same song over and over. I mean I love this song but I can't do this constantly. I guess I need to find something more than what I think is perfection. Maybe it's not all in one thing, but a variety.  But what else can i learn from this? Am I destined to miss out on something better because I refuse to let go of what I love? Ah, again I am slipping back to reality. I never seem to come to a conclusion with these episodes....